Lost in the big black hole.

guess what fucking shit just happened?

yesterday, 30th July, female hammy (muffin)

gave birth to 2 little baby hammy.

actually i didn't expect that both of them

will survive till the day they have fur.

i want more hammies. so i'm glad she gave birth again.

i was really happy and excited about it.

it happened before i go to school.

but then then then.

okay, i'll write about it in a story form.

*i, on behalf of muffin, is telling you people this.

it's funny, violent, evil. haha!! x)

'so, today i was brought somewhere else,

i was separated from my mummy and daddy,

in this transparent glass cage, looking at big

creatures with very very big eyes, staring at me,

everytime they pass. and they'll say something.

which i don't know what they are talking about.

so one day, on 8th march 2009, i think someone bought me,

they brought me to a very very big pink cage,

which i love it, i met this guy name Butter,

he's hot but unfortunately he's a sex maniac.

he raped me and i'm pregnant. i gave birth to 3

smaller species and i ate all of them because they're

not pure. i can smell other creatures smell on my

baby and so, i don't like dirty baby. so i ate all of them.

after a few days, i'm back with butter, as i said above,

he's a sex maniac, so once again, he tortured me,

raped me. and i'm pregnant again. this time, 5 of them

were born, and i ate 3 of them because they're just

too adorable, i can't stand, so i ate them. left two small babies

of mine, they grow, and they have fur, they don't need my

milk anymore, so the creature with very very big eyes,

took them away from me and once again, i'm staying with

butter. i'm starting to hate him, i don't wanna have sex

with him anymore, i don't wanna get pregnant,

IT HURTS. but i'm just so unlucky, i'm pregnant again.

i gave birth to 2 of them this time. and i can't stand it anymore.

so i ate them up and decided to run away from my cage.

i ran away and fell. and that's the end. the end of my life.'

so i think you guys get what i mean if you

read the story above. haha!!

okok, no haha. i'm sad you know.

my hamster died. female some more.

how to breed? how to have more?

i don't know why muffin run away?

and how she died. i just know muffin's dead.

conclusion : rest in peace, i'll always remember you.

'eating up your own babies. haha!!

*omg, i realised something. i feel so evil now.

so violent, this post. so ewwww.

obsessed.

hey people,

today's last day for assessment.

nono, not today,

tomorrow, but only civic.

civic = don't need to study.

so fusssh~~ time flies.

today's sejarah,

studied at the eleventh hour.

not gonna fail i think. O.O

geografi didn't study.

but it was quite simple,

so maybe not gonna fail too. O.O

i ate ice cream today.

it has been a long time since i last eat trophy.

>.<>

wooo! once again. assessment over.

next school event is prom nite.

i bought my dress already.

so no worries. =)

but before that,

we're staying over at someone's house,

then going to sunway next weekend.

*we referring to sinyen, julianne, ratu, winnie ko,

yu hong, michelle, andrew + me. =)

mission to accomplish:

-prom dress for sinyen.

-celebrate julianne's birthday.

-mengeratkan hubungan kami.

-have fun + shop till we drop.

friggin excited. xD

*picture for sinyen + ivan,

julianne, ratu, winnie ko + michelle.

i'm still sugar free~ x)

ya'll know what i mean.

i'm doing maths homework now,

for tuition, having tuition later.

weeeeeee~~

nothing special happened this few days.

owh owh. yaya! this this :

Sinyen~ says:

omg

szeyie

this song damn long already

i like the movie damn much lar

damn nice

this girl sing damn nice

like shit only

it's always like that.

'omg, this is friggin delicious, like shit!'

'fuck, this question so easy, shit you'

'yerrrr, why the dog so cute want?'

'happy like shit now'

haha!!

get what i'm trying to say?

toodles for now. =) have a nice day.

commenting on me?

phewww~ just reached home,

from my singing class,

today's singing class is shitty,

very very shitty,

not in the mood to sing + very sleepy.

not fun at all.

today,

a very good news,

i got highest for BM,

can you believe it?

first time on earth i got highest,

but it's only 70%,

others lower.

not really happy about it actually,

stunned + shocked + surprised = shit.

all of them were like,

'omg! she got highest? so unbelievable'

ya ya, i know, very unbelievable.

but believe it.

since it's only luck.

Today's paper,

KH and Science,

i did really badly,

didn't study at all,

so fucking lazy.

not in the mood to even think about it.

Tomorrow,

Sejarah & Geografi,

don't know how la.

haih~ damn.

friggin warm here.

eyes closing,

seriously have to take a nap.

yes again. =.='

candid-in-face

yooo,

ssup people,

i'm here to blog about

last saturday which is on 25th July 2009.

it was aik chiang's birthday.

went to puchong for balinese food.

11 people went,

and guess what?

all of them are 19,

and from kwang hua.

except me,

14 from acmar. O.O

haha!

it was fun,

the food was fine,

everything was fine i guess.

they're all friendly.

and once again,

they're all nineteen. xD

3 of them without partner,

and 4 of them with partner.

so i'm andrew's _____.

hahaha! >.<

shit!

forgotten what to blog.

arghhh,

nevermind,

off to nap again.

toodles~

days, weeks, months, years.

not been updating a lot lately,

friggin lazy.

no topics to talk about.

nothing much.

i wanna update but i have nothing to update about.

so let's talk about assessment.

not prepared, dead.

tonight will start studying.

i think. =.='

really tired this few days,

sleepy + blur.

sleeping late.

wooosh~

next,

we'll talk about...

fcuk, forget bout it.

i'm so sleepy now.

i wanna take nap before going tuition.

=O *yawns*

oat + muffin + coffee.

yesterday,

went to my uncle's house,

then to sunway.

bought my prom dress already. =)

bought it in Miss Selfrigde.

spent a lot this month.

haiyaiyai~

so as you can see,

the pictures below,

it's from my cousin's wedding album.

took some of them only,

because there's like so many.

and it cost like 16thousand plus.

in taiwan some more.

but it's very nice.

my eldest cousin sister,

she's like so pretty,

so hot, so gorgeous. xD

ignore those reflections.

lightss~~

green in colour.

Happy 14th birthday kiko. =)

we're friends since kindergarten,

you were once cute.

but no more now,

because you're charming now.

fusooh fusooh~

bought something for you,

from us. =D

love you kiko.

you're somehow the best.

iheartyou

i ♥ theM

took a few pictures just now in school.

we were like,

'errrr. errrr. what pose what pose?'

so took a few pictures,

winnie ko didn't want to be in.

more in facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/find-friends/?ref=friends#/album.php?aid=2030699&id=1156785361

_______________________________________________

so this few days,

had lots of fun with my friends + him.

so i'm watching tv now,

nothing much to talk about actually.

just feel like showing those pictures. xD

loving my gummies.

ssup ssup people.

hey hey, i'm so happy.

didn't update for like few days i guess harh.

this week was okay,

nothing bad happened so far.

but so many good things are happening. xD

i just loveeeeee this few days.

i can't stop smiling everytime i think of him.

he's sweet, caring, cute.

you guys probably won't know who am i talking about.

rockon!!

conflicts between me & someone - solved.

relationship between me & him - closer.

we're having fun - yes, definitely.

so, i'm getting better.

no more emo days.

more to happy days.

but but but.

SHIT!!

assessment's coming,

and i don't even know the chapters to study.

great. x)

i guess i have to study at the eleventh hour again.

toodles people,

i have to go shower now. =.='

don't compare.

please stop comparing me & her.

think twice before saying something.

what if i'm the one who's judging you,

commenting on you, comparing whose

outlook is better.

won't you get angry?

i'm staring at your honey face.

in a shopping mood this two days.

too bad, bought a hoodie + a shorts and a perfume only.

have to be thinner. xO

this shirt out. didn't buy.

bought the shorts only

wanted to buy this from roxy.

but. too fat!

wanted to buy this also from guess.

but the boobs part there, not comfortable.

so didn't buy.

tried on a lot.

but didn't buy.

have to lose weight.

annoying fats~

huggggg

here's the video.

i don't know how to rotate this. =.='

and this sinyen,

don't how to take the right angle to make

this brigde looks high.

it's very very high,

trust me. =)

you gave me more than i want.

Pictures uploaded. =)

look at how short she is.

realise i trim my hair a little bit?

new hoodie + sinyen's cap

memang cacat.

xO

siang chang + siang leng, friggin excited.

i love this picture.

he's like afraid i'll eat him up.

shot 1 - failed

shot 2 - failed

after cycling. sweating.

that's all, byeee~

i heart my blanket

get to upload on retarded picture from

sinyen's phone only.

will have more soon.
=)

i shouted...

chewwy's name under the bridge~~ =) with echo.

the man who can't be moved by the script.

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

nice song, thanks to ______.

(have to censor his name.)

hurry home to rotorua.

hey people.
i'm back from cycling with sinyen.
damn fun, tiring.

omg~!
i really weaaaaak la~

5 minutes of cycling.

sinyen : don't tell me you tired already r.
me : yaya, very tired, cannot move already. *breathing*
sinyen : omg. damn weaaaak la you. =.=

we rested then we went to a very very high brigde.
took a video there.
don't should post a not.
coz i looks retarded there. xD

took lots of pictures.
posting tomorrow or later at home.
didn't bring my cable here. xO

woooosh~~
sinyen watching tv now,
i wanna watch with her.
haha~!

byeeeee~~

tooooooo toooooooo~

psycho psycho~
got problem.
i'm feeling extremely happy + excited now.

no emo la.
haiyooor.
talked through yesterday night.

omg!!
i can't believe he _________.
smiling smiling smiling.

tomorrow.
heh heh heh~!
tuition chewwy~~

haha!!
in sinyen's house now.
she's cooking instant noodle for her brothers.
haha!!

going to cycle later. =)
gummies~

i'm numb

posted two pictures, saddening pictures

since i've not posted any pictures in the prev post,

i'm sad, stupid!

i hate to be emo.

i seriously hate it.

but this time i was like numb.

this was yesterday night's post in my private blog.

'i'm seriously crying now.
can someone help me?

can someone bring me out of this
drowning ocean?
i'm feeling so...sad?
i'm really heartbroken.

once again,
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.


i have this feeling again.
very painful.
i feel like running out of my room.
go on top of a mountain.
and found dead there.

very very painful.
i'm bleeding.
i want it to stop.
please stop bleeding.

i'm hurt.
no one can help me.
i have to swim out of this ocean
full of pain & lies.
but now,
in this moment,
i've forgotten how to swim.

i'm hurt.
i have to leave my laptop in tears.
and you know how much i hate it.'

after a bit of crying,

i went to bed,

i forced myself to sleep.

i wanted to shout,

but i can't,

everyone was sleeping.

it was a silent night.

i can't stop thinking of what's happening.

but around 2 in the morning,

i managed to sleep.

this morning when i wake up,

i just drop yesterday's stuff,

and begin a new day.

the hope for him,

all lost, no more hopes,

no more, lost and gone.

no more hopes,

in fact, i'm dissappointed,

because i felt that you lied to me.

yes, it is you!

yesterday night,
around 1.27am while i was reading
mails, many many mails.
i heard a ringtone,
a phone ringtone if i'm not mistaken.
it's like electric guitar like that want.
but right, after that ringtone,
i heard a woman's voice.
a very nice voice,
saying 'it's okay, bla bla bla'
not very clear.

then i thought that was my father's phone,
but when i think the second time,
my father will normally turn off
his phone when he is sleeping.
then i think again,
maybe tonight he didn't off,
or forgotten to turn off.
so i don't care, but feeling a bit freak out.
i quickly run to my bed, and sleep. xD

then today in school,
i told sinyen,
i told her 'sinyen, i think i heard ghost yesterday.'
then she's like
damn scared,
she reminded me to check
my father's phone,
the whole song.
when she reached her home,
she went down from the car.

i immediately take my father's phone
and check the ringtone.
AND GUESS WHAT?
no woman's voice till the end of the song!
i was kinda surprised.
excited, scared, wanna find out more.
i think maybe i heard wrong things.
i don't know,
i hope it's really a woman,
because i would love to see her.
one day, i guess.
i think i'm not that scare of ghost.

maybe i freak myself.
i don't know.
hope it's true.
but at the same time,
i hope it's not true also.

xD haha!!
i'm not joking you know,
seriously,
i heard a woman's voice,
a very very nice voice.

=) hope to have a happy day tomorrow.

love, is the greatest thing sometimes.

hey hey,
ssup ssup~
i'm feeling very okay this two days. =)

yesterday was the first time
i lose my 1st girlfriend's kiss.
i kissed michelle & sinyen.
both crazy fellar.
only sinyen did not kiss anyone.
michelle kissed both of us.

ivan & tzelim was like 'ewwww...you girls r...'
their face damn damn funny.
no more 'THE GAME' tomorrow.
yea, better don't play,
later mind not 'open-minded' then
misunderstand, fight.

THE GAME - is somekind of game, which we have to do
really heavy dares. =) i would loveeee to play
but..some people don't like it. nvm. forget bout it.

_____________________________________

i've created a new blog,
this time a private-blog.
only trusted buddies are allow to enter,

xD have to shower now,
sweating like mad just now.

toodles~~

Forever *rolling eyes* ?

wooo~ see who's that girl?
what's her name?
i wanna know her.

opps~ that's Julianne/ Zhu-li-anna i thought.
becoming as pretty as ever,
or should i say as horny as ever.
haha~! i was just kidding Julianne. xD

so, this is a post related to this very special someone,
whom i knew since i was in kindergarten.
everyone loves her,
since kindergarten.

she's kind-hearted,
though she'll keep saying that you're disgusting.
she's funny in her own way,
because she will laugh herself after saying something.
she's polite?
though she gets angry at you and will bang everything.
she's annoying,
when she laugh out really loud and sinyen will yell at her.
she's horny,
when she's in science class and talking bout testis.

she's my goody buddy,
and i love her very much,
though we fight sometimes,
but she's still my very very good friend.

so i'll like to wish her here,
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY JU!
may your wish-es come true.

xD i know i know,
last but not least,
UDON IS YOUR SILENT KILLER.
teeeheeee! =)

S.H.A.N.I.C.E

Guess what guess what?
Today is really an unlucky day.
This is really unlucky for me.

I went to tuition early today.
So i reached there about 8.03pm.
And i'm just so damn friggin MALANG.
Guess who i met?
SHANICE (my old goody buddy in era tinta)

And i was wearing long black trousers.
And a white t-shirt from F.O.S.
I used a light orange hairband,
no fringe at all, and tied one as usual.

And i heard people laughing,
so i like slightly turned my head to see who is that.
And i saw YUKIMII, shanice's goody buddy.
OMFG! i was like shock.
I walked really fast hoping shanice did not see me,
BUT I FAILED.
she called me 2 or 3 times,
and i just ignore her.

Because i wanna give her a good impression of me,
a better image in her mind.
But omg! i don't know why so malang.

SHANICE!
don't misunderstand you know,
i was lucky to meet you,
but i was unlucky because i look like
a piece of shit?

haha!! i was like so panic.
what to do what to do.
so i planned to meet you up in the bookstore
next monday, this time i will dress to look like a normal person.

P.S. sorry ya shanice, for ignoring you like that.
we'll meet again leng lui. xD

Iron girl maybe strong physically, but weak mentally.

I wanna be an iron girl who is strong physically & mentally.

FRIENDS.

You gotta have them,
but sometimes they drive you crazy.
You love them,
but sometimes they make you mad.
They'll help you through a crisis...
unless they are the crisis.
haha!! xD

Friends are more than
just the people you hang out with.

They make you laugh,
they keep your secrets,
they offer advice (some good, some bad),
they give you a shoulder to cry on.

Sometimes they move away,
or betray your trust,
or flake out,
but mostly they are the people
who are always there for you.

And they know you'll be there
when they need you most.
Because that's what it means
to be a friend.

=)

Stop it man.

Life must move on even though he's not by my side.

Okay, i sound so desperate.

And again, i don't know why, i feel so ?? blank.

I must stop all those stuff, it's irritating.

I did a wrong move.

So, Sinyen came to me house.
Yes, again.
This time is for steamboat.
And we went to aeon for someone's present.
*ahem ahem***


And we talked about people, relationships, bla bla and bla bla.
haha!! all craps.
my mind is kinda like blank now.
ignore my ghost-looking face above & below. xD

*we're actually trying to take a very,

ermm, should i say 'ARTISTIC' picture here.

But i think we failed.

o.O" (sinyen's emoticon)

so i asked sinyen to try to take me in different angles, see i sacrifice for her.
*once again, ignore those fatty layers. xD

this is okay, but my eyes, kinda puffy here.

SINYEN'S PHOTOGRAPHY SKILL

GOOD OR BAD??