i'm numb

posted two pictures, saddening pictures

since i've not posted any pictures in the prev post,

i'm sad, stupid!

i hate to be emo.

i seriously hate it.

but this time i was like numb.

this was yesterday night's post in my private blog.

'i'm seriously crying now.
can someone help me?

can someone bring me out of this
drowning ocean?
i'm feeling so...sad?
i'm really heartbroken.

once again,
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.
i'm hurt.


i have this feeling again.
very painful.
i feel like running out of my room.
go on top of a mountain.
and found dead there.

very very painful.
i'm bleeding.
i want it to stop.
please stop bleeding.

i'm hurt.
no one can help me.
i have to swim out of this ocean
full of pain & lies.
but now,
in this moment,
i've forgotten how to swim.

i'm hurt.
i have to leave my laptop in tears.
and you know how much i hate it.'

after a bit of crying,

i went to bed,

i forced myself to sleep.

i wanted to shout,

but i can't,

everyone was sleeping.

it was a silent night.

i can't stop thinking of what's happening.

but around 2 in the morning,

i managed to sleep.

this morning when i wake up,

i just drop yesterday's stuff,

and begin a new day.

the hope for him,

all lost, no more hopes,

no more, lost and gone.

no more hopes,

in fact, i'm dissappointed,

because i felt that you lied to me.