i went through many stuff that made me a better person.
i've gained experience from everything that happened in 2009.
some good and some bad, saddening and cool, fun and love.
school : its just starting of form 2, we're all so excited that
we're not the youngest in high school anymore. and i'm so happy
that i can stay in 2S with all my fellow classmates. choosing places
in the class. everything's soo new and it all went pretty well. but still
we had some small arguments in the middle of everything.
not really everything, but some. and i know things arise out of causes
and conditions. and for some reasons, i think i'm really grateful to
be in acmar despite of some pretty rough dramas and all,
i think i love my school (although i kinda hate school, as in schooling)
friendship : friendship 2009 wasnt really good. just too much of gossips
and backstabing. i seriously gained a lot of experience in friendship.
to gain merit, cherish merit first. sometimes, i think i care too much
about comparison and all, and i've been sensitive, but now,
i think good flowers need not to be pretty, but must be fragrant.
its not true sometimes, about what i see. its all about what i've done.
love : i dont find love in 2009. i dont know whats love. i learnt soo many things
about that and i think im being immateur. its not like what i think. its always
about him. things that happened too fast will end fast too. everything about love
was like a dream. and it all ended sooo fast that i couldnt really believe.
the thing i know about love now is, i dont know anything about love.
i'm too young to talk about love. love's never really there. its kinda unreal.
and i think loving a guy now, is stupid. im saying for me. they will soon
disappear and no more in your future. like what i always say, i still dont believe in forever.
family : finally, it comes to my family. saving the best for the last. my family
were the only one i could turn to when everything goes wrong. i realised how
important they are to me. and i dont wanna lose anyone one of them. they
forgive every single mistake i made and put on a smile on their face. they showed
me how much they love me and what family means. they're always with me,
no matter how sad am i, how happy or how hurt. they're just...you know...there.
family is always the best. they never fail to make me smile. even though im abit
like....sotsot sometimes, got a bit angry when they nag. and sometimes lying to them
about unnecessary things and feeling all guilty about it. its like, i hate them in this
second but i love them more in the next second. its always like that. im really grateful
that i have such cool parents. my father, the one who always talk to me about life,
he tells me everything about this merciless world and teaching me everything that he
had gone through when he was young. my mother, the greatest woman i've ever
met since i was born, since the day i opened my eyes, i knew that she'll never
leave me alone. she's the woman who teaches me how to be a proper girl (though
im still not that proper. :S) my eldest sister, the one that i can have heart-to-heart talk
every time i see her. she's the one who showed me
one can be. and i've learned alot from her. teaching me how to be responsibility,
not to be late (even im still always kinda late) and all. they supported me, they motivated me,
i cant express how much i love them through words. :D iloveyou! a family gathering
is a fountain of happiness. ♥
in the midst of this life, dont puzzle over the life before.
in the midst of this life, dont worry about the life to come. :)
resolutions :
- be a good daughter and sister.
- study for the coming pmr (urgh)
- spend less money (im trying)
- save money and buy stuff that i need only. (puppy!)
- be respectful to everyone.
- study my faults to remove them.
and i shall forgive those which i've been trying to kill. (just joking)
just be good. i can't really promise that 2010's a good year for me.
but i will try my best, to make it a memorable year for me.
byeee~
ps. okay. i know i haveeeeeeee tons of grammar mistakes here.
most probably because its 3.20am and im sleepy.
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