she's making me crazy.

1st picture : thanks julianne, for the christmas pressie.

2nd picture : i wanted that badly and my dad said it's a waste of money,

but then he bought me that on 25 december 2008. thanks.

i was bored.

im trying not to think about it.

but i just cant stop thinking about it.

maybe alcohol can help.

i just wanna forget everything.

and smile happily without you in my mind.

you upset me. you spoiled my day.

i dont blame you. because you couldnt understand me.

you wouldnt know how pain is it.

you told me that day that you wouldnt do it again.

but you just did it. did you deliberately do something like that to hurt me?

tears roll down my cheeks when you told me.

i just want to forget everything.

like it never happened. it's not a big deal for you.

but you, as my friend, knows me well.

you get all mad when i asked you.

you told me you didnt do anything.

but sorry, i just cant stop thinking.

that day, you apologised...blankly.

i forgive you sincerely.

i loved you once more.

but you made things worse.

worse and worse day by day.

i can fell the scratches in my heart.

it hurts.