Vacasi.

I reached home around 2pm. Came home before school ends. Heh.
I just showered and Im going to pack some stuffs before I go Johor!
Im soooo excited now.  :D I hope I'll remember to bring everything I need
and bring everything home I brought safely. Wheeeeeeeeee~

So long people!  ♥

I pray for this heart to be unbroken.

My phone's barred. =X

I can't text you.  :(

I have to pack. >.<

Im lazy. :S

Im sleepy. :O

But I have to go. :P

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Happy Birthday Ratu Amanda Annette! :)

You are what you are. Thats why I love you.

You helped me a lot this year when Im in the dark hole.

You're the one who didn't give up on helping me.

You're the one who has faith in me.

You're the one who's there when I need someone to talk to.

You're the one who's asking me about my day.

You're the one who can see everything from my point of view.

You're the one who wants me to fail my diet.

You're the one who encourage me to do the right thing.

You're always there for me.

You picked up my calls whenever I call you.

You listen to whatever I wanna say.

And then give your opinions after I've finished talking.

You're someone who says bye before you offline.

You don't get mad at me though you're in a bad mood.

You're so discipline and independant. (I envy)

♥

Don't forget Im always here for you.

And chooow. :D

We all LOVE you.

ps. The gift's to remind you how much I love&trust you.

Love is a temporary madness.

You made me feel special.

This is what I like. :)

Guess what?
I went to the saloon to cut my hair just now.
No difference. But I feel fresh.  ;)  Thats the point of cutting hair.
Not the fringe, just the back hair. I wanted it to be same length but
the hairdresser said it'll look nicer in layer V. So ok la, anything.

Then after that, my dad picked me up and we went Aeon.
Guess what we bought? STUFF! Im so happy.
Coz we bought a new tv! A new home theater system!
And a new digital camera for me my mum.

So excited for the new tv and home theater system to arrive tomorrow.
So excited to see my mum's reaction when I give her the camera. :)
I already camwhore with the camera. HAHA! Will post the pictures up soon.
Wait till the thing arrived tomorrow.

And and, my maid's going back soon.
1 month + she's flying back to indonesia. Bad news. How am i going to survive without a maid?
For few months or weeks. So dead. But the good news is. My dad's going to repaint my room!
Its my belated birthday present. The furniture will arrive soon. Sooo excited for everything.

Holy shit. Exam's coming. :(  I havent start revising.

Im going Tioman+Johor in few days time. Super excited but damn lazy to pack.
Im going to take lots and lots of pictures! WOOOO! :)

Okay time to help my mum print the pictures she'd taken in australia.

Toodles! 

This is something i don't like.

I talked to you properly.
I said hello. I did the best I could.
Im not feeling well but at least I didnt get all fussy.
You are talking rudely to me just because you are angry?
Angry at someone or something and you scolded me?
What have I done? I wanted to make you feel better.
I respected you. And you scolded me.
I can understand if you scold me because of something.
But I told you last night already! You didn't even tell me the answer.
And scold people out of sudden.

Im just trying to be nice to you. To be a person that you can trust.
Someone who can help. You can just show anger to me like that!
So easily? You're acting like you know me damn well.
Do you even know when you said something and it hurts me?
All I do is just keep quiet. I don't wanna speak out because I know you won't like it.

You asked for my opinions. I gave you my sincere advices.
You aren't happy with that and you go all URGH.
That's really what I think. If you don't like it then don't ask!

I want to rely on you. But I have no trust.
You used to be someone who speaks truly
about your own feelings. Someone who care about other's feelings.
Yes you still care about their feelings but not mine!
The more I keep the more you think that I don't have feelings.

I try to smile everytime you're unhappy. All I wanted is to see you cheerful again.
But what you did? Slew away and ignore me? Is that the best you can do?
I think Im useless because I cant make you smile, I can't make you feel better.
A vain attempt.

I know Im not supposed to post such thing here.
I have had enough. I have nobody to talk to.
Maybe you're really like that. I can't change the fact but to accept it.
I will try my very best to understand you.
And I hope you....will feel me and do the same.

Oh. I pierced again. Alone this time.

You are addictive.

Here are few pictures taken in the fitting room.

This is the long dress that i was talking about.

I brought my dad there today and whaaaaaat. He said 'sooo yerr. not nice la'

He haven't even see me trying on that thing.

Fine la then. Maybe I have bad taste. :(

Loook at what my right hand's doing?

Pressing on the dress too hard! Unprofessional poser?

I kinda like this too. :)

Back to MY friday.

Everything went well except the comb! I didn't bring a comb to gym!

Urgh. That thing spoiled my day.

School was fine today. We were imagining about something wild and outrageous.

I killed something tiny today.  =X  Guilty.

Poodie's so darn cute. We talked about her today. I missed her sooo much when im in school.

I laughed alot today.

Losers was superb.

Girl A : It was awesome. Seriously! Besides the laughing.

Weird?

Thank you Jerry & Yongsheng for accompanying me.

Thanks for taking the basket and poodie's food. :)

<3 Goodnite. Im so tired rite now.

Baby oh.

Be right back! Off to Guitar&Piano class then to gym!

<3

Will it be the same if I saw you in heaven?

I used to be this thin.  o_O

I wanna be like this. NOW!  T.T

This picture was taken on 19 September last year.

No wonder I looked so darn ugly in this shirt now.

Coz Im fat now. Wth.

I whackeeed so much in this 5 months.

I aggravated my condition by eating so darn much without controlling.

*Screaaaams!*

I envy skinny people!

Pictures of me in a loooong dress coming up.

I <3 that dress. I must get that dress tomorrow.

Thought it looked kinda weird in pictures. But I seriously <3 that dress.

I didn't shop for like......2 months already?

:((((

I hadn't seen my mum for like......5 days already?

:(((((

I hadn't seen my nieces for like......3 weeks already?

:((((((

I hadn't eat salmon for like.....4 days already?

:((((((

I didn't touch the guitar&piano for like.....1 week already?

:((((((

This week's pretty bad so far.

Good show.

Watched Kick Ass with my dad just now.

It was soooo super funny! Nice movie! All the fighting, murdering were nice!

Super nice! I rate 4/5.  ;)

I tried on some dresses. And I like one of them! Long green dress.

I'll post the pictures up soon. Argue with my dad about which is fattening and which is not.

Hahaha! He said the things Im saying isn't logical at all.

And I saw someone, Really dreamy. So nice can die.

Downstairs for some fruits.

Toodles!

:(

My mum made Banana Cakes. I so wanna eat!

Why are you like that? What have I done?

Aloha! :)  Ya. So last night as usual, guitar&piano lessons, Gym.

Lalala~ And I found out something. I seriously have no talent in dancing.

At all! Seriously! Urgh. How I wish I could dance like some of them. Sobs. :'(

Today was pretty fine. I heard the alarm at 6.30am.

(the time when my alarm rings with pink panther theme song to ask me to get the

hell up from my bed and prepare for school)

So I forgotten to turn off that stupid alarm. I looked at the time. Ohh no.

Snooze 20 minutes.

6.50am the alarm rang again. I was sooo tired and wished I could sleep longer

coz I dont wanna go to school. So snooze 20 minutes again.

After 20 minutes with is 7.10am, I forced myself to wake up.

But I cant! One side of me asked me to get up, the other side asked me to continue.

So I finally got up at 7.15am. Looked at the clock and sighed. School.

And suddenly, I realised it was actually SATURDAY!

I hugged Poodie for joy and continue lying down on the bed. Haha! 'Happy thing eh' I said to myself.

I fell asleep after not-more-than 30 secs. Im not exaggerating. ;)

Received a call from Sinyen around 8am. I was so blur. She asked me whether Im going

to school to watch the basketball matches or not. Haha! I was kinda surprised when she called me.

My alarm rang again, this time its for real. I have to wake up. 10am.

I have to get prepared to gym. Attended Body Combat. So song. Heeeh.

Something humiliating happened yesterday after my piano lesson.

I went to MOG to collect my contact lens that I ordered last 2 weeks.

And I forgotten that I only paid rm50 that time, so i have to pay another rm50 when I collect.

I went there, gave him my receipt and they kept finding for mine.

Finally, they found my contact lens, the guy said 'that day you paid half only rite?'

I was like OMG! WTH! NOT ENOUGH TO PAY to myself and was looking at him with that stunned face.

I coughed, literally coughed, *ahem ahem* and told him,

'ermmm, sorry! I forgotten about that, can I collect it later or tomorrow?'

That guy said sure and his colleague behind him laughed.

I was like ok then, see ya. So embarrassing! HAHAHA!

I brought money today and went to collect my lens, and he said 'oh, brought money today?'

Omg, shittty.

Watched 2 movies just now.

Date Night.

It was funny! Haha! Super funny. Made me laughed like crazy.

I kept leaning to the left because an indian guy on the right

has super bad breath. Ugh. Spoiled the whole thing.

Clash of the Titans.

Hmmm, it was okay, I expected something more.

Oh well.

The guy on my left kept shaking his leg! Its so darn annoying.

My chair was shaking too, and I was wondering its just me or ...?

I thought of earthquake too, and imagined if it was really earthquake. Haha!

Im going to enjoy my sashimi and chuka wakame now.

Toodles~

ps, poodie looks super hot already. her fur's longer and she's no longer uglyh.

Thanks to me. Heeeeh!  ;) My hamsters' eating their own leg. F them. Crazy crazy carnivores.

 Cute aite? ♥

Well. That's a love a story.

He looked so short beside me.

Tsk tsk tsk. Believe it or not! So damn friggin fit now.

But not so buff yet. He said he's working out already. All the best bro.

For the sake of her! Haha! <3

I skipped tuition today because of him! (Im really tired.)

Brought him to the airport, saw nice food but didn't touch. So proud of myself.  =X

He touched down around 7plus in the morning and reached home around 8.30am.

Came to school and brought me home. I was soooo surprised when I saw him in school. :)

And now went back to singapore. Just for her/him/idontknow.

WORTH IT! So romantic la stupid bro.

Haha! Congratulations anyway. :)

(I wish I was the one flying to singapore just now. :[ )

I watched The Grudge 2 just now. Winnieko said it's mega scary.

But i think it's not scary at all. Seriously. I didn't jump. My niece even fell asleep.

The next horror film that im going to watch is SAW VI.

Toodles~

Love you love you, May I love you?

Holy Mama. I just found out that a piece of banana contains approximately 107 cals.
And I just ate 2 pieces! Tsk tsk tsk. My sis cooked ee mee (correct term?) just now
and brought a plate up, she wanted to share and it looked delicious, so I ate some.
See la see la, FAILED. Wth. Ahhh, nevermind la, I didn't eat much.

Today's activity was ermm...not bad. Kinda fun. We went through 6 stages which were
the Hell, Heaven, Earth, Reborn, Punishment (i guess) & Hungry Ghost.
Learned something new today. Met some new people too.
And there's this guy, I don't know whether he's a gay or something.
He likes to open his eyes till like damn big and kept looking in the mirror, camwhoring with girls,
and do those act cute pose. Goosebumps. If only he acted normal, he'll give people better impression.
Oh god, am I judging someone? Change change change!  :D  Be good.

I have a dilemma, don't know whether to go Pulau Tioman or Drug Prevention something, whatever it is.
A place where drug addicts go. Im coming back from Tioman 1st May and they're going the Drug place
on the same day. Ahhhh! What the heck. I want to go both! WTH! My mum's not going to Tioman
with us. Urgh! I was so excited about three of us going Tioman together and now she said she's not going?
She's going Singapore AGAIN and this time my dad and I are going Tioman without my MUM!
I wanted to find the same old feeling when I was in std 3, 6 years back when we went
Pulau Langkawi together. I was excited to see the photographs I take and took, compare and laugh together. Going Langkawi together with my dad and mum was one of my best memories. <3
(though we went to some other seasides in Thailand, Penang etc etc....I still love Langkawi the most!)
But then see now, No more NO MORE! And Im still thinking whether to go Tioman
or the Drug Addict place. I want to talk those drug addicts and participate the activities, at the same time,
I want to go Tioman, near the beach, somewhere I can rest and take nice photographs. Since I had
my camera, I've always wanted to go beachside but I don't have the chance. And now the chance
finally comes, and another luck came. Such a batch la. So hard to choose. Ahh, I'll talk to my dad tomorrow.

Last but not least, I hate it when someone has the intention to condemn about my family.
Please don't EVER ever do that. I will hate you, seriously I will. I do hope that my own family
members won't condemn one another or have bad impression about one when you don't
really know the truth but you're just guessing or assuming that they're wrong. Please don't.

I have some work to do and Im not in a really good mood. WTHECK IS WRONG?
If only I have someone to talk to. This is a sensitive issue and there are only some people I trust.
But he/she didn't pick up my call. Well, fine. I'll face it myself this time.

Deception.

Before typing this, I wrote a bunch of nonsense about deception.

HAHA. Just for fun. Julianne, Sinyen, Dyifeng talked about deception for oral. :)

Me : Ada masak tak?

Maid : Tak ada, da che nanti mahu masak.

Me : Masak apa?

Maid : Goreng mi.

Me : Ohh. Saya tak boleh makan lah.

Maid : Kenapa?

Me : Saya mahu jadi kurus lah, kamu tak nampak 2 hari ini saya makan buah dan sayur saja meh?

Maid : Iya. Tapi tak kurus pun.

Me : BELUM LAH!

Stupid maid.  -.-  Trying to tell me I too fat isit.

Tsk tsk tsk. Omg. I can smell the thing my sister's cooking now. So tempting. *drools*

Macha Iceeey.

Today was verreh fine for me. :)

I woke up around 12.30pm and got ready for gym.

My sister & I went for Body Combat.

Before Body Combat was Body Pump. So we stood near the glass door and was looking at

those people cooling down. Eh in surprise. I saw Vincent.

Eh again, Yuhong, Kelvin, Kok Leong, Chee Xiang were there too.

Haha! And Vincent was like *shocked face* I don't know whats so shock about seeing me there.

I was the one who's supposed to be shocked seeing him there.

I hesitated before going in the class. Coz I know that Vincent will peek.

Haha! And he really did. But I didnt really care coz I have the determination to lose weight!

Im going Pulau Tioman on the 29th and I need to lose weight before going!

I wanna wear bikini and take nice pictures! I wanna look thin!

:D

Today's the last day eating so much.

I ate Macha Icecream! Yum!  <3

School again tomorrow! Why I didnt sigh when I think about school?

I wonder. Heeh. Toodles!

Oh oh, did I mention about having nice hair today?

Good hair day. ♥

It'll be nice if you treated me better.

My dad bought an apron for me. Thanks! :) Cute!

*ignore that retarded picture of mine, i only had one picture with the apron on.

Im gonna make Caramel Custard soon. :D  I made Jelly and Mango Pudding for them last week.

And I think they like it. Woo!

As usual guitar and piano lessons on Friday.

Surprisingly, sinyen was in aeon too. So i met up with her and walked together searching

for collar tee and hoods for 1 hour and finally bought 2 pens.  =.=

Went gym after that just to take bath. Didn't workout.

(that explains why Im putting on weight...tsk tsk tsk, mou ngan tai)

Then after that I ate Oyster Mee Shua with my dad. Lepak there for a while.

And didnt realise I received a message from Julianne 'Im in aeon now. Haha'

Else I can say hello to her or something.  ;D

So I spent my Saturday like this.

I woke up around 9am and realised I was already late for the gotong royong in taman rakyat.

So I continued sleeping coz I thought maybe by the time I got ready the thing ended already.

I woke up around 12.20pm with a shock coz my dad's picking me up at 12.30pm for lunch in Telok Gong.

Quickly shower and got dressed and was late for 5 minutes. I hate myself when Im late everytime.

Went there with Debbie & Sofia. The 2 funny clerks of my dad's trading company.

Had a nice lunch and syok sendiri-ing in the car! Haha. That was a funny part. But i'll keep it to myself.

Reached home, and saw my sister waiting for me. Aw. :)

Went gym for the sake of her and she watched movie for the sake of me. How sweet.

And coincidentally, we bumped into few of them. (referring to those 4 people in the above picture)

And coincidentally, we watched Being Human. Haha!

And coincidentally, we sat at the end of row H while Wenyen sat at the other end of row H.

We saw each other after the movie ends, and when they were showing the NG part.

I was laughing too loud. And so he turned and shouted our name. :)

I had a nice day today.

And I shall sleep now coz I have plans tomorrow.

Goodnite~ Au revoir~

SLUUUUUUURP.

Finally got a chance to taste slurpee after so long.

Sinyen wanted to get one before tuition just now but too bad the machine broke down.

My dad met 2 accidents in a week. Tsk tsk.

Proton last 3 days and Rush today after dropping me in tuition.

Maybe coz he's missing my mum too much. Haha! (she's in singapore)

And my brother said he met up with her last night and she'll come home and tell us how thin he is now.

I'll show you how fat thin I am rite now. Im gaining weight. Shit.

Okay. I have a pretty stupid or funny or whatsoever dream to share here.

I dreamt about this two nights ago.

Im a really really famous person. But don't know famous in what.

Im super rich and has lots of money. Someone who can influence people easily.

And has control of everything. So there's this singing contest in China.

A really big one. So I asked my manager to book tickets for all my classmates

and family including my uncle and aunty and cousins and everyone that's close to me.

The aeroplane landed on the stage. I changed to my costume which was a white colour tube

with a high waist skirt. I could see my classmates cheering for me in the crowds.

I was ready to sing and I sang. I have mega nice voice and

made everyone's heart melted. Suddenly! Vishaal shouted 'OMG! SZEYIE HAS ARMPIT HAIR!'

He ran around telling everyone and ran on the stage pointing at my armpit like a psycho.

I was so embarrased and wished to dig a hole and hide there forever.

I kept asking him to SHUT UP! but he just couldn't listen to what I say due to the boos.

The judges said I wasn't qualified to be in the next round though I can sing.

I wasn't prepared for the contest coz I didnt get rid of the armpit hair.

I was so upset I changed to my normal clothes. Lucky they said losers had steamboat coz I was starving.

I went to the restaurant and ahhh! soooooooooooo many pieces of salmon.

My saliva and dripping and I feeeeeelt like as if I was tasting those salmon.

And then the alarm rang.  -.-  At least let me finish my salmon steamboat first what.

I went to school and told them this stupid dream and they all laughed.

Thats all. Toodles~ Sleepy.

That's the reason why we go away.

 Second sis came back today and this is a short conversation between us.

sis : OMG! What happened to Poodie?!

me : She went grooming. Very ugly meh?

sis : Yaaa! Not cute at all. Why cut her fur la. So cute already.

me : it's too long.  o_O

My heart was broken into pieces. It's like I have a super bad haircut and someone says 'EWW!'

That hurts. Sorry Poodie. I kept apologizing to her but she doesn't seem to care.

Sorry Poodie. Quick la, let her fur grow longer. But I think she's still cute as ever! :)

Last night my dad and I went for dinner.

On the way home we passed by a housing area.

We saw many people crowded infront there. Not crowded exactly.

But many cars and all. So here's something kinda....I dont know.

Dad : What's happening there?

Me : Hmm. Party laaaa. Somemore what.

Dad : So many cars. Tsk tsk tsk.

Me : Obviously party rite.

-speeeeechless- when we passed the house and saw what's happening.

Silent.

It was a funeral actually. Not party.

PTOODILES!

SHIAT!

Ohhh nooo! My printer broke down!
OMGOSH! @%*&(@$#$#E$%^&&(*())(

SORRY RATU!

F YOU PRINTER!

H.E.A.R.T.

HAPPY 1 MONTHY-VERSARY!

(it's really hard to differentiate those stuff toys and poodie. she's just like one of them)

You made me smile whenever Im down.

You wake me up every morning and kiss me whenever I call you.

Though I think you act(ed) cute sometimes, but I'll always love you.

You seem to understand what I want. And listen to what I say.
You're already part of my life. I can just lie on the bed and hug you for as long as I want.

I can't deny my love towards you get deeper and deeper day by day.

Remember the first time we met? Im already in love with you.

You're always there for me, and I will always be there for you too.

You're always beside me when Im reading Tan Lines.

You're never bored of me. I know that!

I enjoy being with you and smile instantly thinking that I'll see you when I get home.

You love my smell and misses them when Im not home. ;)

And so, as a reward for being such a lovely puppy.

I brought her to the pro-at-cutting-dog's-fur-centre.

SHE FRIGGIN LOOKS LIKE A GIRLY FEMALE POODLE NOW!!

She's soooo tiny. After having fur-cut. She has the poodle look now.

Tsk tsk tsk. Cost my RM65! Broke la broke la. Dying soon.

Best time to camwhore with her when she's tired.

Opps. This picture can see my friggin moussstache.

And my pretty lil Poodie.

Wooookie. Thats all!

I want something BIG!

Woke up around 12noon. (my dad woke me up -.-)

I planned to sleeeeeep till shong. But..well, forget bout it.

Poodie waited for me to hit the sack last night. She was lying on my bed. looking deadly tired but she

just couldn't close her eyes. I turned off the lights and wow, unexpectedly she came to me

and slept beside me. But I woke up instantly due to some *dendenden* from MSN.

I think she was kinda pissed. Haha. And went the corner of the bed and slept there.

Sorry Poodie! :D  Tan Lines' really super addictive! Can't stop reading it.

It's a friggin nice story I guess. I wanna watch Clash of The Titans! Seriously.

Went lunch just now with Sofia and Debbie. Oh boy, it was super full. Bloated.

Blooooodyh shit. Poodie's barking at don't know what again. -.-

Well, okay, off to watch Hi, My Sweetheart.

*Michelle, Winnieko, Sinyen! Im gonna watch TALANG.

Toodles~

What can I do to make you feel this?

Sigh. I don't have the mood to CAMWHORE!

So everytime when I try to take picture of myself, it'll turn out, not the way I want it to be.

Time to take a rest. Too ugly already. Bored.

So, I changed my braces colour! Light blue! I love this colour. It's nice. :)

I enjoyed today's guitar class. Haha! The teacher was like, testing me,

whether I remember the chords or not. He was like 'G major.'

Then I have to put in that position. I kept forgetting E minor and D minor.

So he was like 'OMGOSH, FIFTEEN OR FIFTY? GRANDMOTHER LA YOU!'

It was kinda fun. I learned Bar Chords today. It's really fun.

After a while, my sis came and we both hung out for like 20 minutes?

She said Im abit weird these few days? Really? I think Im having overloaded fun these few days.

Maybe Im just too tired after Fun times.

And guess what? Another picture of me smiling with a phone?

Not a new phone. But a surprising call. From who? From Ryan! Who's Ryan?

Ryan's my korkor la! My brother! Yeaaaah, seriously, my bro called me.

That was the first deepest conversation ever! Secreeeets had been revealed.

At first when I saw his call I thought it was just an ordinary 'hey, how are you' call.

But it wasn't.  =O Maybe coz he knows that I can somehow understand him

and have a connection in between? Haha! Riteeeee?

Remember the picture I posted last time in my blog? Him holding a card? He was around

nineteen or twenty that time. And he weighed 73kg that time. When he's home

for CNY, he weighed around 86kg and you guys know what?

HE'S UNBELIEVAB-LY 75KG NOW! OOOOMAAAGOSH.

Seriously, I still couldn't believe. 1 month + only! How can he lose 11kg?!

He said he's gonna prove it to me when he's back on April 15. We'll see.

I miss talking to Shanice. :(  She's in tuition now. I'll call her later.

Ratu, Sinyen and Michelle said wanna syok but till now, nobody's syok-ing.

They're all busssyh. Im the only one who's syok-ing inside that conversation. Tsk tsk tsk.

Lastly, a picture of the sweet lil bitch. :)

I LOVE YOU!

April Fool!

Today was fun. :D Everyone was hyper! Especially Ratu & Sinyen.

Hmm, nothing much to talk about.

Oh oh, Sinyen and I did something really fun today! :D

Toodles~