Sudden urge of tearing something.

My blog's so dead.

What if I tell you, I have the same feeling like how I felt last time?
What if I tell you, I can't accept what you are now?
What if I tell you, I don't wanna listen to what you say?
What if I tell you, I did something wrong?
What if I tell you, I feel awkward when it comes to certain issues?
What if I tell you, you have to stop being stubborn?
What if I tell you, you have to learn to treat people better?
What if I tell you, you shouldn't think too much?
What if I tell you, I have no idea what Im saying now?

S.
Su.
Suc.
Suck.
Sucke.
Sucker.
Yes, you are one.

I apologised for certain reasons that only someone can understand.
Even the person I said sorry to, asked me why?
I couldn't answer that question, because I don't have the guts to tell you.
I apologised because I did something wrong.
I can't change anything if I continue doing it.
But it's too hard to resist. And so, I MUST have the determination.
I can, I really can. Trust me, you'll see the difference....soon.